It’s been nearly a month since I last sat down to write a blog post, and that last time that I did I was struggling to find the energy and inspiration to write, and that had followed the fact that I was too tired to enjoy the things that I was making.
The following weeks at work have been so very tiring and full on that I have just felt that I haven’t had time day-to-day to enjoy or take comfort in my life outside my job. To add to this a close member of my family, my grandmother, has been taken very ill in hospital, and with these things added together the only thing I have wanted to do when I get home from work is to crawl onto the sofa, force myself to find enough appetite to eat, and then sleep.
The last few days I have made a concerted effort to try to do a little knitting in the evenings. I have not always managed, but I have been trying to find the spirit in me to knit at least one round of the sweater that I have started.
I keep reminding myself how much warmth and comfort I will feel from this finished knit, and that things will get better. I can see the light at the end of the tunnel, now. Though I have been unable to take a day off when I have most needed it, simply because of my recent workload, I have next Monday off to gather a few things together ready for Christmas. I also have Friday of next week off too, along with Mr Awesome, when hopefully I will be in the right spirit to celebrate my birthday, which is only a few days before Christmas. I need these days off to try to help find myself again, because I think I have lost myself amongst work pressures, upset and a resulting bout of depression that I have found it hard to shake, but little by little I hope to keep adding to this garment to keep me warm and protect me from the coldest days.